Halloween Discoveries

I was thinking today for a moment about my past. In high school we have a four day retreat called Kairos. I know many places have it and for those of you that have been on it know that it can hardly be explained. For the rest of you just know that it is an incredibly awesome and spiritual retreat. But it is not the retreat I want to mention tonight. I instead want to mention that I got to be a leader my senior year of high school. We were all assigned witnesses to give on the weekend to the retreatants. For some God unknown reason, the two adult leaders wanted me to give the witness about Self. I was shocked. I believe my words were "Wait, seriously? I know nothing about that!" Now let me say that in high school, I made no secret that I was incredibly awkward and inscure and as my mother will tell you probably more than the average high schooler. I knew nothing about myself. How was I supposed to tell all these kids how to accept and find themselves when I had no idea how to do that myself. But, as I was thinking about it tonight, I thought how much I owe those two teachers. I apparently knew more about myself than I thought and when it came down to it, I was able to write a great witness. Those two teachers saw something that I didn't see in myself for a long time. That witness was the beginning however. That sparked something in me that made me think about who I was and who I wanted to be. Tonight I had my first rehearsal with my actors for my scene in my directing class. I was in my element then. I am leading a group project tomorrow as well. If someone told me that in four years ago when I was being assigned that witness that I would be directing plays and short films and leading group projects, I probably would have just laughed. Not because I couldn't believe it, but because I never thought I could do it. That witness helped me figure out who I was and for that I will be forever in debt to those teachers that helped me with that. Now I have a direction.